there's nothing left to lose. http://driving-emo.org/finale/index.php http://driving-emo.org/finale/index.php?entry=13 The RHINO ROOM.TVThe RHINO ROOM.TVThe RHINO ROOM.TVThe RHINO ROOM.TVThe RHINO ROOM.TVThe RHINO ROOM.TVThe RHINO ROOM.TVThe RHINO ROOM.TV

one of my friends online show. go to it, oh you must be mature aka 18 or.. 21 and over to watch. or .. i guess mature enough they have some wild stern like stuff on it. oh and did i mention JOE RHINO is the host, and his co host is a little person who's one of my close friends (yet, she's kool about being called a midget) so um go watch it.

oh and I'm working on so diy stuff. I STILL yet to upload it.]]> http://driving-emo.org/finale/index.php?entry=12
I'VE TRIED to QUIT SINCE I EVEN HEARD THE WORDS "SALES" and the boss guy is just not having it. I mean don't get me wrong, it the most coolest working environment. every, you can only dream of it. but the thing is i suck at sales, and I suck with people. He is all like. if you do two week of 40 sales, two weeks of 60 and two weeks of 80 you are so going to club med with us.Yep club med. I was psych about the thought, but .. this sales thing is not for me. Its based on commission and .. in one week I made like... $80 bucks. that totally went towards gas.. so in total I made like -$40 bucks. and I only got like a dollar per
framed art I sold for gas. so ... its not for me.. tomorrow evening I'm taking back the art and frames and saying THIS SHITTY JOB IS NOT WORKING OUT FOR ME. he also said that I was taking life to serious cuz I told him i applied at the hospital and got a job. then he was like. I wouldn't get a job filing shit no matter how much they paid me. WELL I SAY TO YOU. I would filed bloody tampons if they payed my gas, school, and health insurance. so eff you see kay art job.]]> http://driving-emo.org/finale/index.php?entry=11

my previous blog was deleted. Damn you blogging script.!!! so I went out with this one guy I've seen three times since the begging of the year. and everytime we go out and makeout. he gives me money. He is so odd.
not weird, just odd. He wants to be in my life. he constantly asks questions and wants to meet my friends and family. He says we are friends and he always asks me to confirm it. like saying "we're just friends right?" and I say yeah. and in reality I do just want to be friends, but he keeps acting like he wants to be more. We are just friends with benefits. nothing else. I dont want him to take a pic or me. or vice versa. so what is he's deal? I told him two days ago i was going out with some other guy and he kinda got hurt,and said yea you can do what ever you want we are just friends. so i dont get him.


anywhoo that enough for right now. peace and stay rad.


P.s I'm not all big on prayer and religion, but I'll have you in my thought jessica (http://fatalattraction.digital-sugar.org/)so things get back to awesomeness for you.]]> http://driving-emo.org/finale/index.php?entry=10 Jessi, you are awesome, not doubt!. The reason I said kinda.. is cuz ... I don't really like getting up early.. and I'm kinda in the .. well If I'm late twice I'm not going the next time.. cuz I'll probably be late again.. cuz well lets face it I like to sleep in. Its not that I'm lazy Its just that I'll feel dead, depress, and tired if I dont get at least 10 ish hours of sleep. P.S for those that like to sleep more that 7-8 ish I read in a web md / health zine/mag (i guess it was) that it can cut your lifespan short shorter. maybe a year or three.]]> http://driving-emo.org/finale/index.php?entry=9 Jessi, you are awesome, not doubt!. The reason I said kinda.. is cuz ... I don't really like getting up early.. and I'm kinda in the .. well If I'm late twice I'm not going the next time.. cuz I'll probably be late again.. cuz well lets face it I like to sleep in. Its not that I'm lazy Its just that I'll feel dead, depress, and tired if I dont get at least 10 ish hours of sleep. P.S for those that like to sleep more that 7-8 ish I read in a web md / health zine/mag (i guess it was) that it can cut your lifespan short shorter. maybe a year or three.]]> http://driving-emo.org/finale/index.php?entry=8

I know I could have improved something, but this thing called "CREATIVITY" comes by me rarely know-a-days. I hate the facts that I'm worn out. I no longer have creativity or passion for making graphics. I've been like this for about two years. I used to not be able to sleep because of the such I got from making stuff.

So The Dark Knight came out, and I started seeing a lot of documentaries the history channels had about comics, and off course BATMAN and this is what came out. Yeah I know there is not Bat one the layout. sorry.

okay well I'm going to take my little sis and brother (mind you that their are 19 & 20, and I love them to death)to watch the movie.



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FreeHostia canceled Amarilys' site www.digitalsugar.org SO PLEASE CHANGE ALL LINKS TO Digital-Sugar.Org ASAP.
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With my dad quitting his old job and barely starting out a new one (he quit about two mos. ago) and my mom barely making money for food and essentials a week, we haven't paid most of the other bills. I barely too started out at these misc. works I do, and its been about two weeks.


I feel that I'm getting nowhere and I'm trying twice as hard as before. my dad is being a douche bag about it. we are struggling with gas for the three cars we have and I'm getting stressed out from worrying about all these. I have telling myself that it is up to me and my brother to get out family out of this ditch we sorta dug our self into. All this shit is getting hard to cope with now.]]> http://driving-emo.org/finale/index.php?entry=6



Its just that I've had alot of negative thoughts lately and then I start to wonder off to death love and happiness.



A few days ago I saw The Air I Breathe I thought it was a good movie, Very good plot, but there was some mild bad acting. The movie is based on a Chinese proverb about love, sorrow, pleasure and happiness. That's all I'm saying. about that.

I just recently had a breakdown. I really miss my friend. She was a great part of my life. The bad thing is that she might have been the rotten part of my life I can live with. But as each day passes I feel that I need her more in my life. She was the only person I knew I could trust. But like many great friends problems; A boy got in the way. a very immature one at that. I didn't' want to give her an ultimatum. I love her as mush as a person can love a very good friend. She was like a sister to me. I would have been willing to shave my hair if she lost hers. Give her my kidney. Even take a bullet for her. But after everything I did for her I saw what little she did. and it meant absolutely knowing. Not a single thing she did could come close to what I did for her. She didn't put anything into the friendship.




She texted me twice after I broke up the friendship. Then I heard nothing. One of my other friends said that She really wanted to talk about what happen. But nothing. Now before the whole friendship breakup. I had given her two months to talk to me. since her bf lived in my house for a while, and in all that while, she'd only come to visit him. If i happen to ans the door She'd speak to me; other than that nothing.


I after a month of losing her as a friend I has a car crash. I thought she would go to see me. Nothing. Seconds before undergoing the car crash I was thinking of going to talk to her after school, maybe it was a since from god.


A couple months before everything else. She had bought us both a matching bracelet. It was our friendship bracelet. Mine fell apart after a three months. The three months her bf stayed at my house. That shouldn't me her will for my friendship was weak. Hers was still like new. (I'm not sure if she still has it)]]> http://driving-emo.org/finale/index.php?entry=5
I seems to me that there was more hopeful and pure-er loving/romantic views back then than now.
There is nothing as great now that resembles Pride and Prejudice, The notebook, and that sort of genre. Not in books not in real life.


I am a hopeless romantic that has never been in love, I am more in love with the though of being in love then being in love with someone. I love those fairytales, and the happy endings, I love the love strucked couple that faces a tragedy. I love the complexity of a complex movie of a trouble men in love with unusual women.

I don't know what I'm trying to say, but the point is that Pride and Prejudice, and Little women were two of the best movies I've seen in five years. I wish there was some more movies with about the same concept of those two.]]> http://driving-emo.org/finale/index.php?entry=4

"The goal of Dianetics is to erase the engrams in the reactive mind to achieve the state of Clear. Once this state of "Clear" is achieved, according to Hubbard, an individual is able to function at his or her full potential. The ultimate goal is for one to reach the level Cleared Theta Clear, described by Hubbard as:

"A thetan who is completely rehabilitated and can do everything a thetan should do, such as move MEST and control others from a distance, or create his own universe"
-XENU.NET

CoS vs. Anon
Many people think that anon are douche bags that are haters and into the whole hentai thing. Well anon. or the main group that did start anonymous where hackers and haters that were perverted. But now they the greater part of what of the people that became part of anon are fighting to make ignorant people aware of CoS (Church of Scientology) and what they are really up to. Anon is not against the part of Cos that is a religion, it is against the part that is a scam. Religion is free.


Anon used to make crank calls and make stupid threats to CoS but they have grown up over night and gather protest ever month all this year. And just like anon was a jerk CoS just like out of a movie started to make rebels disappear and they are hunting down the main leaders of anon at these protest.


I am no one special. and i was followed and taken pictures of while walking to my car which was about 8-9 blocks way from CoS. I even got chased down along freeway.

If you ever do get caught in; don't let your identities be found out. If you are a very active member you're life and family's life can be in danger. Do not underestimate the power of, or "logic" of CoS. Seriously.
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Well I am currently looking for employment and trying to plan-out how to support the family. Because at the moment no one is working. mom is disable because of her appendix op. dad quit because his contractor and long time friend was being stingy. my brother got fired because of tardiness. I'm always on seasonal jobs. My sis has never work, and doesn't care to work for the life of her.


I owe gas cars like $500 and CC about $500. Gas prices are going up. I been having a lot of mood swings, depression that just doesn't go away.]]>